I feel so guilty lately. I feel like I’ve abandoned this blog and all that I (and my previous co-bloggers) have worked hard for. It all started around December. My voracious appetite for reading began to slowly wane until January when the cravings stopped completely. I figured it was a simple slump and I’d do what had always worked before – I’d watch Netflix until the cravings began again.
Looking back I can see exactly where I went wrong (or right depending on your view) – I decided to finally watch Queer as Folk (US version) which has been on my queue forever. I. BECAME. OBSESSED. It doesn’t help that the damn show has a cliffhanger. I was so caught up in it that after watching it a gazillion times in a row that I decided to search for that thing called “fanfiction” I’d heard about on tumblr and a little bit through the blogging community.
I’ll be honest: I thought fanfiction was not cool. It meant obsession way beyond healthiness and there probably weren’t even very good authors writing the stories. I wasn’t keen to dip my toe in the waters, but I was so desperate for a QaF fix that I began a search. I googled and the first site I found was FanFiction.net. Now I’m currently guzzling up stories on ArchiveOfOurOwn.com.
Guys, it’s Shelf Confessions time. I’ve been reading QaF fanfiction solely for a couple months now and I can’t seem to bring myself to pick up a novel. Although, I have read a few fanfic’s that have been novel length. And I have found that there are actually decent writers writing these stories.
I just can’t stop myself. I honestly don’t know what to do. I keep waiting for this obsession to lessen and for me to get interested in a novel or something else, but so far it hasn’t happened.
And the blog suffers because I feel really geeky writing about fanfiction on a book blog. I mean seriously, I’m not going to review stories that people are writing purely for enjoyment and not profit. It doesn’t seem right somehow. I have considered sharing some of my favorite stories with you guys and telling you why I love them, but I’m not sure if anyone would even be interested. It wouldn’t be a critique or review, it’d just be me showing some love to the stories I think deserve a wider audience.
I just wanted you all to know that I’m still here. I haven’t forgotten about the blog, I’m just trying to figure out how to work my new obsessions into my blog life.
So, now that I admit to being a member of the fanfiction fandom – who else is? What fandom are you part of? So far I’m just reading Queer as Folk stories but I’ve seen a TON of Harry Potter stuff (that frankly looks kind of scary… Harry and Snape pairings freak me out a little and not because of the m/m aspect.)
Please tell me I’m not alone! And does anyone have any ideas on what they’d like me to post about my new obsession, that you’d enjoy reading about?